Am listening to ‘I cannot forgive’, a song from a Korean drama. And ‘mean’ by Taylor Swift.
I don’t know why but I actually do not wish any of my friends to see this post, so maybe I am going to private this post or blog soon. Do not intend to defame anybody, yes, it is that serious, replying to my Qad. Though not a life and death issue, but after what happened today, I am 101% confirmed to make a good decision I will never regret.
Pardon me for my playful note of writing in this blog post. This is the only way to make myself feel better without breaking down. And adding a twist to my life, makes LIFE EASIER. IT DOES NOT MEAN I AM NOT SERIOUS OR TRUE TO WHAT I SAY OR FEEL. Because anything and everything only comes out of my mouth when I mean it. I am true to my heart, and accountable to heaven and earth, and hell for what I am doing all the time. Guess I don’t have to swear yea, whoever believes me believes me. Whoever don’t, just won’t. (Instead of saying period, shall replace it with) bloody period.
Do not wish to rant, maybe I should recount what has happened this afternoon. Which followed by my decision made starting tomorrow onwards. I am a happy, lovey dovey kid. When I don’t get angry easily, it only shows I have good self control. Does not necessary indicate that I do not own any temperament. A good friend is somebody who can be there physically or not even if the sky falls, A bad friend is a lifetime bad luck and disaster. Adding to that, a bad friend is more usually not a friend but a fiend.
The woman I am going to write about, is in fact already mentioned a trillion times in almost all my blog. I have been wasting my blog space for her. And apparently, it’s not worth it. Very not worth it. So this is the last time I am going to write about her. The very next time, if, if, if, if there is one, will be either on stomp website, or Google webpage.
My only motivation in life are love, peace and harmony. If any one of them is missing from my relationship or life, I will vanish in thin air. And I mean it. I will not succumb to your evil schemes. My friends may like you, your friends do but not me.
My money and time was spent on the wrong person. But lucky I had fun today because I didn’t really take you seriously before semester one. You were too ignorant and proud for me, I was very sure of that.
Alright, here I start, a summary of what has happened, because I am sick of wasting more time to recount on her great deeds.
PC invited me to enjoy over Playnation @scape today. As a gesture of goodwill to ‘celebrate’ this woman’s belated birthday as a group of clique, also to go on an outing when we can afford to for semester II. And myself feeling bad for not wishing you a happy birthday but no worries, because I won’t ever for the rest of my life! woohoo! Ended up, the woman read her book all the time, of course I can understand her love of reading. It is equivalent to I love my boyfriend, so every outing with whoever, I am going to bring my boyfriend along. Well, I can understand that if you are urgent in returning the book (because there is no such thing as renewing NLB books, pun fully intended) ,more willing to entertain your book that your friends, disrespect rather than not sociable. If I love your book so much, and am thick skin enough to say that you’d rather marry a book, than a man. Then please fuck a book and not fuck other people’s mind.
Yeap, I am not offended at the least. Because I love books too. I even shit on books, use book as a plate for my meals, make love to a book, and talk to a book, spend the rest of my life with a book and well, I guess maybe book gives birth to me too 🙂
I am able to eat happily, because I love SABA fish yummy 🙂 Told cha! I’m a happy kid, even if the FACT IS THAT I was hurt, but still nothing beats walking around naked with books. So I’m glad, I ONLY FELT HURT 🙂 Also, Umisushi is indeed delicious even if it’s over at 313! Not to mention I had a sumptuous dinner with EL too ! Seafood noodles and cold-served seaweed:D *bliss*
Then as we proceed, walking from 313 to scape. Everything was alright until, before I went into Playnation. You stood beside me at the front glass door, using that piercing laser eye, even stronger intensity as compared to Qad’s. Okay I must admit, this is certainly something better from you than Qad, in my heart, if not nothing else. And you suddenly open your huge freaking scary mouth, with that wide front tooth and a heaviest accent filled with hatred, blowing hot smelly air in my way. I barely heard you, but it sounds like “I FELT CHEATED”
A question please, did I cheat your money? Did I cheat your father’s money? Did I cheat your mother’s money? Did I cheat your sister’s money? Did I even cheat your grandparents’ money? Or maybe your dog’s money. Ouh, I knew it. Maybe I did. Cheat on your pet spider’s money. Cheat the beloved creepy crawly eight-legged hairy spider as big as my palm of yours of it’s feelings and $$. This, I have to apologise 🙂
Yes, I’d admit I did told you, that the Playnation is only 2 bucks per person. But I BELIEVE I also did tell you I ve never been there before. And that I thought EL booked at most 2 hours of fun and enjoyment, because time is precious. SO END UP, YOU ONLY brought $18 dollars to spend. IT IS FINE ABSOLUTELY! (no pun intended) Because the whole clique intend to pay for all your expenses today. It is just that you don’t know.
But you’ve just spread your disease around this afternoon affecting the whole clique’s mood because of your bloody inconsiderate temper and smelly mouth. Instead of playing wii with us, you sat at the corner of the soft fluffy sofa with your hot buttocks and read your book like a bookworm. It is fine, because I am a bookshit. I use to wonder why you have no real true happy friends surrounding you, now truth finally reveal itself. Because you simply do not deserve it.
I guess if a innocent cute young vampire go out with you also will vomit blood. Because she will see you reading your sucky vampire fucking each other story on a couch in playnation without even glancing at the wii TV nor console. And while all the others are eating, you’re still into the sucking period blood of vampires storybook. Never mind, vampires don’t have periods. Bloody period.
You are the one with the least budget, and could not afford to eat @a restaurant, but refuse to speak up, only immersed in the butt crack of a vampire story dripping shit. Ended up eating subway. If you told us earlier, wouldn’t it be fine? Attitude written all over your face. (cannot sarcastic your face, later thunder strike me)
Actually I do find that you’re very suitable to become an artiste. Actress to be exact. You can act as villain. Nah, should be you’re a villain yourself. It’s natural!! You’ve got great potential, fucking attitude, especially fucking art of dao-ing, fucking mouth full of poison, and a fucking brain full of evil thoughts. You know what? I have yet to tell anybody about some of your ‘good’ almighty acts, not until you sign a contract with media corp and people can see it for themselves 🙂
You purposely attitude me during our lunch time, not only did you not spoil my mood, I ate happily instead, so you switch to your scheme II, to knock me off my feet, make me feeling like I’m nothing. Your scheme II, is to tell me I cheat your feelings, so that I will feel down thru-out the gaming session with my beloved friends and wanting me to back out. Isn’t it? If you’re just plain jealous, I can understand. It’s human nature. But now, what you have is devil nature. I am suspecting if you’re a real homosapien. GOSH ):
Too bad, you failed both, because not only did I not leave, I sat down and play my guitar, sing loudly, and dance until I perspire! WOOHOO xD Someday I will be big enough so that nobody can hurt me, and all you ever gonna be is MEAN! Ended up, you left earlier. Well, though it really pains my pocket to pay for your game. But is okay to spend this money buying myself a lesson learn.
Soooo, I guess I left out a very big part of my story, but it doesn’t matter any more. Because I am never never never ever ever ever going to forgive you as long as I live. So no goodbyes, just a sucky farewell. Take today as a farewell party. Congratulations on myself to regain freedom woohoo 🙂 Even though I did shed tears on my way home tonight, because I simply tolerate so much smelly shit from you. But never again I promise 😀
From tomorrow onwards, I will sit at the back of the class. And not with you. NEVER. After our project work and presentation next Monday, I will officially delete you from Facebook. Not going to UK with you, I’d rather die than to do that. If I have to, I will quit school. I mean it. It is because of you, I dreaded school. You expect too much, bitch. You wanted this and that. Even Qad or LD don’t really force me to do things I dislike.
Seriously, I’d rather I solo and got no one to talk to in class, and is 1000 TIMES HAPPIER BECAUSE I CAN SELF ENTERTAIN, than to allow you to bring me down again and again. Drowning me in agony and sorrows. You once said I am pitiful because I have to tahan your bloody vampire period PMS in year 2012. So I thought it is over. But nah, the new bloody vampire period have just started.
Yes, I’ve been going to school recently daily with PC. But that does not mean anything bad. Just a company. Two’s a company. Had a chat with EL, rather to think EL is a horrible kid, she is one gentle loving kid too, because she fell in love with target HAHA
Glad to know there is actually LOVE on earth. SOMETHING I NEED more than water, air and food. LOVE feeds the soul. I have that, and that is WHY I gave up on you. You don’t appreciate your clique trying to please you, because you’d prefer bloody vampire cleavage over talking to them. You don’t appreciate the sensitivity I given you after your smelly mouth complains, you’d rather hurt me with you poison words and dart sharp glances at me at times. You don’t appreciate the attention and love we gave you, you don’t deserve it. Because you’d rather read the bloody two vampires making love book. You love fiction, and I belongs to the non-fiction. You don’t appreciate so many of us, 5 of us, spent our hungry and tired Wednesday afternoon to make you feel happy and blessed, because you’d rather want to spend time with yourself and your imaginary bloody period vampire boyfriend. I guess by this time, everybody will know what book are you reading already 🙂
I don’t mind my QAD or LD think otherwise, because your attitude is obviously against me only. So even i they love you soooo much, I am never gonna feel or do the same. Because I -hums- think I kind of hate vampires having period and making love on trees. HAH! You are only picking out on me because you thought I was the weaker woman. NAH, though my butt-crack not as attractive as a vampire, my clenching butt cheeks is STRONGER! Can kiap kiap make NOISE and deafen you 😀
I promised myself to never ever forgive you not because I am not benevolent or kind. But because I deserve to be happy just like now. Anything sad, will be over. There is no rain that will last, even if it’s a long day gloomy rain, the rainbow will come. *clench fist* *clench booty*
So tata! Short and sweet!