New Year’s Eve

I really enjoyed work today, though instead of compilation,

I am doing house-keeping.

Inside my IAP booklet, SUP says I learnt alot, except to get on with the development, must do more detailed housekeeping.

Meaning I am going to do cleaning, winter cleaning! To make sure my lab sparks and snow indoor 😛

 

Also, I tasted the charcoal pineapple tart, my favourite yummy! Cept that its black in colour. How charming 😀

Also, I get to go shopping for New Year sales during lunch in my work area estate. Thats so cool, to know that fresh seafood are half the price in warehouses, as compared to supermarts.

During work today, while I’m climbing up and down as usual (cleaning in monkey style),

reminded me of J.

Yesterday I met him, at first he ask if I am free to have dinner, and when I mention New Year coming up, supposedly celebrate with loved ones. And he says I am one -.-

I meant family. Forget it. No reply. Then later another msg saying I got a present from Thailand and that QAD they all received it already. I wonder why he never pass it to her, since he pass it to Dor for Caleb. Then he give my attitude D:

By saying FINE! Because I want to see you. Come down now.

*filled with hatred*

WOW what a strong word to use 🙂

Anyways, I knew it!

My clinic fee is 40 bucks plus.

Never am I going to believe that it is only 20 dollars for two days MC and million packs of medicine.

Also, the doctor looks.. .serious. Like I got some kind of terminal disease. Or maybe because I look.. . DEAD. HAHA 😀

 

Felt slightly sickly recently. Hope I can enjoy new year! Year 2012 HERE I COME 😀

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Practise makes perfect

Fire Drill in company this morning.

I was still cleaning all the way! And Carrine says I’m the funniest ever, to clean table when there is a fire happening.

Was in the cold room all the time.

And how can I ever missed the book fair on the ship in Vivo today?

It is the last day!

Moreover, I can get to see Michel and J.

Forget it 😛

Because I smell like chicken-beef and I handle over thousand bottles of chemicals today.

Even Carrine suggest I take a rest.

I did!

While making myself some Milo in the pantry, and munching those potato chips in Jalapeno flavour YUMMY 😀

 

Thanks God for today, such a wonderful day.

And my wonderful colleagues. Today’s lunch is really exciting, though more and more people are taking breaks.

 

New Year is coming!

😀

Wonder if I should go Marina Bay to watch my wishes written on those white balls fly up the sky, or should I go vivo city to take a look at the wonderful scenery and fireworks?

Awwww. At least better than Siloso beach right! 😀

Gina got two tickets. But for the sake of Bikini, I shall go somewhere less crowded 😛

 

I miss my QAD! And J msg me and says Xin is not in a good mood, or it seems to be so. Well, I will pray for her tonight. She’s in my heart, as well in Lord’s. 

 

Hope my QAD is doing great and soar in her FYP 😀

Shall see her real soon.. . maybe presentation day?

WOW sounds stressful enough.

I never get to finish my poster yet.

GUSTA!

I am really an irritating person to not reply phone messages.

Guess all my friends are getting upset.

Sigh.

Shall get down to working myself right.

And the rest I deserve.

God, I love you 🙂

I love to EAT!

I am so going to eat dinner later on.

Just reach home from work.

What a thorough day.

And tomorrow is company fire drill day.

Lets all have fun!

And Year 2012 is only 3 days ahead!

I want to go vivo city this year to HIGH the city’s new year 😀

And watch fireworks and many upcoming celebrities 😀

 

Sup signed my IAP booklet.

And his handwriting,

read by another 4 of my colleagues.

Still, unable to understand some of his words.

 

Nevermind.

I see him everyday, he see me everyday.

Got anything he will POINT IT OUT in my face.

So that I can improve!

Cheers to having a steady-pom-bi-bi SUP 😀

Tomorrow I try go WASSSSSSSSUP him 😛

 

*Hungry*

Hmms, been time since I take a look at those NEEEEEWS.

Well, now which country is the coldest.. .

Pretty XMAS last night:)

God loves us, for he gave his one and only son to die for us on the cross to wash away our sins.

GOD I LOVE YOU TTM 🙂

This time round, I will not request, I will not ask, I will seek, follow and praise you, and your son:)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY Jesus Christ <3!!!

 

tight *hugs*

and one big hug to myself cheers! 🙂

Thanks God J is having fun right at Msia 😛

And Thanks God for all the invitations to fun, to heaven 😀

 

My heavenly father, you know what?

I took the cable car yesterday, the Jewel box.

And I felt you! your presence in me.

I am so close to you!

But I know I am closer to you in heart:)

 

Lord, JC, I was with my two best of best friends.

In this beloved, snowy misty Christmas,

in that shaky windy dark shiny box,

with POPCORNS can you believe it?!

And mocktails. Thanks God for the day:)

 

And the presents!

Though PAPA say LD find me very irritating and slow and always late, therefore he gift me a TORTOISE 😛

But I am not going to buy that.

It’s because I am intelligent okay! anyway, roundy roundy nice to kick 😛

 

And I received this xmas present from Gina,

whitening mask!

The Bulgarian white rose mask from 我的美丽日记!

Thanks lovely sistar! 😀

 

And my hearty QAD!

I got this box of sweet TTM Cadbury chocolates! 😀

Thanks so much for the XMAS surprises!

 

Mine would be soooo belated for I lied in bed for days.

And I didn’t really get out there to get them something.

But I seriously love them wholeheartedly 😀

For whatever God gives me, I am soooo gonna

give to them with all my liver! 😛

 

Listening to Give your heart a break- Demi Lovato

 

 

 

长大了以后

 

是我长大了以后才知晓

小时候去朋友家玩上一整天,是幸福,是友情,乱跳乱叫,都没人会评你

长大了,去朋友家过夜,并非单纯,特别因为他是男生。

让我想到,小时候做的,现在难了。

幸好,儿时的我 玩够了!

谁的家都去过了:)

以后,要用大人的礼仪到朋友家拜访了。

我要长大了!

我只是一個平凡的女生

人人都说女孩子不要太要强、太独立、太厉害,不然会不招人喜欢。

可是,我若不要强、不独立、不变厉害,谁会在我最无助的时候伸出援手?

靠山山会倒,靠人人会跑。

 

妈妈说,女孩子,只有自己强大了,才不会被别人当做附属品。

家世好的女孩子,会有爸妈为其铺好华丽丽的金砖大道,

相貌好的女孩子,会有男友老公等着为其鞍前马后尽献殷勤,

运气好的女孩子,会有贵人相助使之平步青云鸡犬升天,

真是。不好意思。我似乎哪个都排不上。

 

因为,我知道,

下雨天如果忘带伞,就一定会淋雨,

淋雨之后,不赶快擦干头发,换掉衣服,

就一定会感冒发烧,

生病之后,不赶快看医生吃药就会越病越厉害。

曾经去输液,隔床的女孩一边给老师打电话请假,一边哭,

我当时觉得,这孩子真傻,哭又能怎样?

真是个傻孩子。

 

可我也曾是个傻孩子。

曾经我会在躲雨的屋檐下看着一个个被接走的人觉得自己像是个弃猫,

曾经我会在饿的胃疼却连水都没得喝的时候很想哭,

曾经我会在拥挤的公车上被人左推右推的时候感到委屈,

曾经我在冬天的夜色里默默对自己说“生日快乐”

曾经我在被冤枉却无力辩解时躲在厕所捂着嘴巴大声地压抑着哭。

 

我不是苦水里泡大的孩子,我只是个不愿意向世俗妥协的女孩。

我可以很乖、很听话、很粘人、猫咪样迷迷糊糊躲在他大衣上边左侧口袋里幸福地打盹,睡醒了就用小爪子不轻不重地抓他毛衣上的绒线球,若他瞪眼,我就会“喵呜,喵呜”装装小可怜,他无奈的笑,我便胜利。

而在此之前,我会一直努力坚强着,扬起下巴,不哭,不闹,不发脾气。只微笑。

没有女孩子愿意一直坚强,只是她在等一个理由,一个可以不强迫自己坚强的理由。

在此之前,她只有自己保护自己,

直到骑士到来,巫婆的咒语解除,她便会蜕变成公主。

 

所以我常常忘记自己是女人,

这样一来,

我就没资格抱怨。

对于生活的艰辛,

我照单全收。

男人能做的,

我必须做。

没人能养我一辈子,

想吃饭就得自己去挣钱。

 

 

我常常忘记自己是女人,

这样一来,

我就没资格悲哀。

这个世界存在真爱,

落到我头上的几率,

微乎其微。

谁欺骗谁谁伤害谁,

都很正常。

想活得悠闲些,

必须像男人一样,

看淡点,

再看淡点。

 

 

我常常忘记自己是女人,

这样一来,

我就没资格依赖。

当然,

女人不可能脱离男人而生存,

事实上男人是风,

只能借,

不能依靠。

最好借着风,

像男人一样去战斗!

 

 

我常常忘记自己是女人,

这样一来,

我就没资格优柔。

该对自己狠一点的,

不止是男人。

我相信凭女人的细腻,

再加些男人的气魄,

可以化武断为果断,

同男人一样,

运筹帷幄,

决胜千里。

 

 

我常常忘记自己是女人,

这样一来,

我就没资格唠叨。

从小, 就有“语不惊人死不休”的拧脾气。

我坚信,

有份量的话,

跟篇幅无关。

我知道我这辈子,

定然够不着“一字千金”了,

但请允许我崇拜,

那些说话掷地有声的汉子。

 

 

我常常忘记自己是女人,

这样一来,

我就没资格矫情。

计划生育导致,

九零后是孤独的,

你是父母的膝下独子,

同伴们也是;

你认为自己是中心,

同伴们更甚;

所以别在你的小世界里牛内什么,

在家里你爹妈宠着你,

到外头真没人拿眼皮夹你。

忘掉造作的小姐作风,

有礼有节,

不卑不亢。

 

 

我常常忘记自己是女人,

这样一来,

我就没资格浮躁。

我欣赏并极力想成为一种人,

在他的骨子里,

恪守忠孝,

恪守情义

恪守尊严。

我是说在他的骨子里!

也许这样的人,

平时看来,

挺不正经的。

若他能够挺不正经就干成一件事儿,

并且无碍道义原则,

我想冷静与稳重必须是他的本性。

我做不到不佩服。

 

 

我常常忘记自己是女人,

这样一来,

我就没资格哭,

没资格闹,

没资格上吊。

没错,

就算我不能伟大的活,

我也没资格卑微的死。

 

 

 

我常常忘记自己是女人,

这样一来,

我就没资格愁,

没资格赖,

没资格不承担。

对于命运的种种戏谑,

我也难免得淌过去。

 

 

我常常忘记自己是女人,

这样一来,

我就没资格逃避,

没资格推诿,

没资格等待,

没资格找后路,

没资格责怪命运不公。

 

 

如果有那么一天,

我幸而为人之母,

我会告诉我的孩子,

首先尽人事,

其次尽人事,

再次尽人事,

最后听天命。

不管他是男人,

还是女人。

因为首先,

他要做一个人。

谋事在人,

一切都做到位了,

就看天成不成事了。

Thanksgiving for XMAS

刚刚,J 说他想我了,说有好多话要告诉我。

想他现在在飞机上吧!

以下是昨天早上在上班前巴士上写的:

突然想为这两人写点什么。想感恩。 谢谢他们对我的一切。

Lilian:

She’s my work mate:) A very wonderful Flavourist in my lab.

微笑着地对我说, 不管发生了什么事, 或在工作上遇到了什么困难,都有这几为好姐妹在身边支持我,鼓励我。千万不要为了生病或不舒服,而留下来, 然后觉得这是委屈。

工作该是为了快乐, 是件高兴,幸福的事。这丁点就想让我永远留下来。我本身很爱日落。 每当闭上眼睛,想起眼前就有日落, 就会觉得无比幸福。在工作后的每一天,也因为地区落在新加坡西部,所以日落清晰的可以看见。 这是幸福。

但我太好胜,怎么会呆在这里?想趁年轻,赶快飞, 越远越高越好。混够了,才回家。

Nevertheless, she lent me this pair of dark boots for work. It is my first ever belonging in lab. Thanks for letting me try them on and everything you said. There are still many surprises for me. Thanks God:)

没想到,在我生病的同时,他也生病了。

Laode:

He’s my favourite soul mate:) A very upright person in my life.

总以为, 他是站在后线的守护天使。随时随地,只要一大喊,天使就会为你打仗。其实,经过仔细想想以后,才发现虽说过去就让它过去,但往事也是回忆的美。

有时我会想,为什么全班会排斥他,不理他是他的冷漠,还是他的不屑一顾?以前的我,会觉得他把我亲爱的害了。他很疼我,所以变得不够关心班上别人? 真的是他人格出问题了吗?我曾经想放弃他,幸好我没有,要不我一定会后悔一辈子。因为只有现在,才知道自己有多爱护他:)

导致自己想把时间给他,陪同他一起念书。因为上帝告诉我,要爱他。他是我老的。 我之前说过的所有蠢话,弄他生气, 惹他骂,冷眼和全部的全部,都是我们友谊的证明, 而不是他对我的残忍。

要怪就怪爱 😛

-当我在写这个的时候,巴士窗外下着大雨-

后来,上帝让我看见事实,让我看清了到底发生了什么事。谢谢我的主,给了我这个能力,让我从小到大都可以轻而易举的看得见大局。这样的我,不怕迷失在黑暗的世界。因为我有光,主是我的光。谢谢您引导着我的方向, 让我可以不断前进,飞得很远。

人生下来,什么都没有,就像一张白纸。为什么到后来,却可以失去很多。

老的刚到学校的时候,是比较沉静,原因是他爱音乐,所以那双耳机,永远都带在身上。他对我来说,好像是一台灯笼,用纸做的。而我好像一支蜡烛,被守护着。后来,灯笼遇上火,

在众人面前, 想要保护火, 只为了想要跟火一起照耀大地。却忘了自己也是用纸做的。烧到自己了。

老的为什么会被讨厌,因为他伟大的爱情!让他奋不顾身,坚强勇敢的站出来,为了她最爱的女人。当时的他在想什么?我,再也不说他 Potong Pasir (怕东怕西)了。因为他比任何人还要勇敢。

是我,因该做不到吧。

所以最后,我成了这两人之间的蜡烛。

这个星期天,美丽的圣诞,不会因缺席的人而取消。就像这世界不会因一个人,不会因一件事,而停止旋转。我,老的和亲爱的, 会幸福的! 也会玩的最开心 🙂

人家说,先从相信开始,会发生的。

-完-

在巴士旅途中, 看见成群的孩子上学,有说有笑, 好温馨。 怀念读书好时光!

后来,上班到一半,洗完手,看着镜子里的自己,

觉得我的命好像是他捡回来的。那天, 看完医生后, 他大可以把我送走,要不,掉头就走。 可他没有。 我其实,他在泰国这几天,我也很想念他。

他说可以慢慢来,我就慢慢来。他说我们有很长的路要走,所以我慢慢走。

他说不可以爱上比他好的人,好的!爱比他不好的咯!呵呵 😛

上帝真的很爱我,因为他给了我最好的。 从父母到朋友。

Off track for abit, Melanie won the X Factor. haaaaaa. Happy for her 🙂

Thanks God.

This very faithful Christmas, to my faithful Lord, Jesus, God and my beloved family and friends, I want to give a very big thanks for all being  by my side and all the support and loves 🙂

Zephy, thanks for telling me J is a great guy, my QAD told me that too ❤

And thanks him for the midnight movie:) And the hug. Gives me the courage to hug J later.

Thanks LD for pei-ing me to dinner today, despite me in this sicky condition.

And do hope that friends do take care.

Because the FLU! is coming. Ohmy,

and there are people dying from it.

Sigh.

Say Cheese

I remember the very last time I said “cheese” was when two weeks ago,

Photo taking with my three cousins.

I used to wonder, really, how and why say “cheese” when we want somebody to smile.

And then, what I will do was:

Say “cheese” myself, to trace the shape of my lips and how I mouth those words.

And there, what I got in the end is a shiny Colgate bright bright smile 😀

(Though my teeth not that brightly whitey) 😛

 

And today, during work,

suddenly, or maybe not.

Everybody smile at me.

Not sure if it was me or what.

But maybe due to the two days MC.

Therefore, everyone was asking me if I felt better.

Even people from the sweet lab knows I’m absent for a day.

And smile at me in the toilet 8D

 

It is like looking at the sun with naked eyes today.

For everyone is shining so brightly ever.

Radiating from my lab, despite the weather

from the outside.

And it warms my heart, from the inside.

 

Said my goodbyes to them before I left.

And rushed home like a power train.

Once again,

the bus went past the long stretch of reservoir.. .

with those benches, and one or two loners, 

pair couples, friends, owner and pet, strolling in all directions.

The long greeeeen wavy grass blades biding farewell to me 🙂

 

Sometimes, I wonder if I stop there,

would I ever find the four-leave flower among those grassland?

Then I would pass all the factories.

 

With all the smoke and sky and fluffy clouds, drifting above my head.

Opps, thats my dream 😛

I ran down the bus stairs as soon as I saw my stop kay!

Because I want see MAMA 😀

 

By the time I marathon to my doorsteps, she’s already gone.

Nevermind.

She cook big pot of soup for me 😀

And rice. YUMMY ❤

 

Metting up with Zephy tomorrow at Clementi YAY:)

I miss so much!

And he say he want hug me till I suffocate.

Tonight I must eat more puffy pills luh :/

 

 

Read this on FB:

Tell people that you appreciate their hard work, because you might be the only person who ever tells them.

1 Corinthians 8:1

Reminds me of J. hahaha

Makes me want to join bible school too.

But I think I overage already :/

I want pray for him,

May the Lord direct yours hearts into God’s love and Christ’s perseverance.

2 Thessalonians 3:3

Our Lord is faithful, and he will protect us and strengthen us from the evil one 🙂

 

 

Ouhyar, I need to go downstairs and buy Spaghetti,

tomorrow, lab mates is gonna cook a splendid lunch in the kitchen for us 6 🙂

For in advance Christmas celebration! 😀

 

Aiks! I keep forgetting what I want to say or type.

Guess I and having memory loss.

Anyway, the aftermath of fever is currently SFSG.

hahaha 😀

Real

Remind me, Ahpek used to tell me,

last year,

there is this guy from my class.

He would like me.

And back then,

I was thinking,

definitely not possible.

Because I only got 6 guys in my class.

And 2 were attached, the other 4 are gays.

😛

And it came true.

 

He said something about me working,

in a place where there are dogs.

Or something he meant by sticking his tongue out .__.

Ahpek can be so humorous uh?

And I can only know in the future.

 

He says I will get married by age 24.

But he didn’t say married to who.

So I got to wait and see as well?

 

He harsh me, by saying I’d rather believe in God than him.

And that was last year,

but it was only this year when I went back.

It came true.

 

He says my papa is tied to him forever.

And whenever I need help or anything,

I can always turn to him.

Thanks all for loving me 🙂

Someday I would want to hug Ahpek,

hope he won’t find me disgusting HAHA