Guess God made me miss school today,
made people around me worry,
for a reason.
Because I done something terribly wrong.
I hurt the person I loved most in my clique.
And there, I am
moaning a million times.
Suffering the high temperature torment.
Just ended phone call with J.
The appreciation hour has yet start.
Ms Gan is not there yet.
My report undone and tomorrow’s the deadline.
And my fever is so not subsiding.
But the most insufferable thing is that
I had her on my mind all these while.
Since last night, after I came back from JJ and Ning’s present hunting tour.
I dreamt that QAD forgave me.
So nice I wouldn’t want to wake up anymore.
Read her post moments ago.
Mama came to take care of me.
I waterfall for a minute and she came banging me front door.
Got the shock of my life.
I am so dizzy right now, and dying.
But what I really want to say is.
This fever makes me realise the most important fact
I love my QAD.
Just like how I love God and J.
When I say I regretted not leaving her.
Is because I don’t wish to hurt her anymore.
But now I know, leaving her hurts her the most.
And hurts me the most.
She is working extra days now, and I don’t wish to become a burden for her.
But seriously, I am an irritating fellow.
And QAD don’t have to be tired anymore.
Or even sick of holding on.
Because it’s my turn.
To hold on.
Fact is that I will regret even more if I chose to give you up in the first place.
WAH, I write one sentence, go lie on my bed for 15 minutes.
Seriously this is not fever bah?
Guess this is mentally illness. lol
And JJ, he really is one huge spender.
With his credit card,
he spent up to 200 bucks.
And I went forever21 to get a piece of smiley for Ms Lena 😀
Hope she likes it! Because I love her present.
And QAD ar,
Sorry for putting words into your mouth.
Now I know this is not an act of kindness.
This is an act of deceiving.
Sometimes I must really learn the art of dao-ing.
Maybe I can live my life better if I know lesser things.
Must act blur. hahaha
Learn from J de mama.
And LD’s part,
He got hurt from past experiences.
Just hope he not bring them into the next.
Those happenings must help him grow, not pull him down.
I will pray for him.
And I agree with QAD max, when she says
Because that is what J told me too.
This is the only way out.
EH! And still I want to say,
I am not planning to throw QAD away kay!
Because I sucks in planning D:
The camera, still not fix.
I guess I must go wash the film to see
what shocking photos we took the other day.
Aiks. Me and my random nature forever.
All my single paragraphs like no link de ):
Lastly, I freaking love J. (Cos he say he love me :P)
Thanks God for everything. For giving me such a wonderful QAD and J and LD and my clique.
THANKS FOR THE FEVER.
awww who in the world would do this?
Only those who