a typical Sunday for me, getting used to the life of schooling in the weekends with J inside the isolated Q-lab.
He bought breakfast for me, but I didn’t get to enjoy it. Sorry .__.
And thanks for all the stuff and help today.
While on the train home, I read this book of his, something about God, romance and how to choose your partner wisely etc.
Learnt something bout courtship and dating. Something about the right one in your life. Testimonies…it seems great to love again. But I seem to lost desire and interest in guys. Trust me, I hasn’t seen guys for a very very long time..
Sounds like a lonely blurring dying witch. HAHA!
I got confused right after I read the book, because of my feelings. I just got over my exphoria, and there comes this. It seems like God is using J to hint me loads of things. And that is the feeling I got since a very long time. It is no wonder that I told J, I talked to him a lot because I believed if I do so, He up there would know. But why am I so foolish?
Sometimes I wished that if I marry a Christian, maybe I can used him to get back to God. I am utterly selfish. This is not love.
Lord seems to remind me to read, finish reading Genesis, where I stopped previously since I saw many quotes from there in the book. I just took out my bible. Shall read it later 🙂
Just came back from IMM, bought loads for my house. I simply love stocking my home items, and doing all the designing, furnishing and etc. They say if two beloved Libras live together, the house would be much cuter and prettier. I believe that! Because me&Papa always sit down and discuss about how should we place the sofa, how should we move the bed, tilt the cupboard, shift the fridge. And hand the curtains, cut the coloured papers, stick those beautiful flower stickers everywhere.
When my friends came to my house, I believe they would think two girls live here instead of me&Papa 😛
Mama bought loads for me today, she treated me to the LJS, where QAD says the serving size is pretty tiny. But I am superb full after the meal! I guess maybe cos I can’t eat much nowadays.
My tummy seems to shrink, so I can feel my wrinkled stomach. LOL Cos I am eating lesser and lesser due to myself skipping meals in school everyday for my lab stuff.
I remember I still got a huge tub of test tubes in school waiting for me to go back tomorrow and bathe them. ..
Lucky it’s J’s turn to wash them on Monday 😀
Liva is freaking clingy, irritating and crazy! She clings on to me while I shop in GIANT IMM, until I shout and she laugh and everybody stares at me .__.
She bought the same coloured pencil box as me in DAISO, while Papa shop for his glasswares. He couldn’t find his favourite porcelain cup anymore. HAHA
Ahpei knows I hate the 4 letter word that starts with J. And she keeps repeating it today. I am freaking annoyed to the max I can die. And yet she is there to keep reminding me I am in such a state.
I know it is very childish and stupid to hate a person because of weird reasons. But there are times I just want to keep my peace so I’d rather not talk. I hope he understands. And don’t have to adapt to me. I am leaving FYP in 1 month’s time!
YAY! Maybe when I cry at work in IAP, then I will start to miss FYP 😛
So far, I didn’t know of anybody to cry at IAP?
I hope I am not the first. But today is a great family day! Despite of all the confusion, disruption and bad feelings.
Let bygones be bygones, I saw Vivian on FB, she look prettier, hope she is getting good in life, and also this is what I learnt from her. So I guess no matter what I won’t want to get back with my ex.
If I can break with him in the first place, it only means we’re not suited to be together. But what frustrate me is that, my parents broke us up, not me. Sometimes I wonder will we even break, if my parents didn’t? But its all the past. Am I right?
On my birthday, I can feel like he wanted to talk to me. But… .
S.H.E Selina is so pretty in her wedding dress! O.M.G! *Random* HAHA
How do you know if he is your right one? I felt like asking everybody. How do you know your husband is your Mr right/ How do you know?
Someone who is willing to spend their lifetime with you is your right one? How do you ever know you will not break off with your loved boyfriend?
In that book I read this morning, has the answer. Am I going to find it out soon? J told me to take the book home to read, but I’d rather not. Because I know I’ve lost the interest to be in love ever again thought I encourage all my friends to be in a relationship because it strengthens us, gives them lives. (not baby)
I always hated romance movies, because I prefer horror, thriller and comedy. I thought romance can happen in our own lives, we don’t have to watch others and get influenced.
Listening to 2NE1. Kiss-Sandara
HAHA! I am thinking if I want a guy, I would play with him rather than get serious in a relationship because true love, don’t fulfil your physical, mental, spiritual needs. They make you more productive and grow together. If a guy only likes your appearance, then what for? When you turn old, he won’t want you.
And why would I need a guy for? Baby? Liva started her menstruation yesterday. Mine no. Why would I even hope for a child when I didn’t even start my proper cycle? So why should I worry so much about not being able to have a family of my own and blahblah relationships?
Because I guess I am fated to not have one at all! 🙂
And I am not feeling sad at all! I am crazy .__.
Okay, so I am ready to play?
Hmms….. HEHEHE YOHOHOHO!