What is hell wrong with me? Shedding tears like nobody’s business.
Crying like a bitch wont do me any good except wasting my time trying to vent onto this blog post, or sacrificing my project work.
One really has to go thru all that painful periods of letting go old friends, so as to embrace new ones?
I always done this without thinking the consequences, thinking that I can cope with new friends. Just keep inviting, knowing, intro new people into my life, my social circle without realising that the larger it gets, the harder it is to contain myself.
Because its just so hard to deal with ALL the relationships.
Especially when you know your current ones will become a history once you step into society, the old ones had already become distance long ago and that you can only accept the truth, and that future ones who may step into your life will only contribute to your discard list.
This vicious cycle of treating friends, handling friendships, is like the vicious cycle of human life. Not that I believe in reincarnation but the way humans generation after another does just the same.
It is so overwhelming, the feeling when you witness 50< friends you once knew on line. Its so hurting to feel those strings tagging at you, that they were once your very best friends and now, none.
I cant handle the truth. I cannot. I guess I need time. I guess making friendships the most important part of your life is simply exhausting.
I might as well don't have friends any more since I reached my maximum.
How to maximum when I don't even have limits?
Buck up, project time now(: